I hate where I am

And where I am is stuck. I am less motivated to DO design than I am to look at it. I am less inclined to CREATE than to critique. I am far less interested in working on a project than reviewing what others have already done. And I hate every second of it. I hate the frustration, I hate the angst, and I hate the sheer disappointment in myself for not being farther along, more productive, and more achieved than I am.

Little credit is given to creative careers. And yet, those who continually solve problems where the answer is already known are the ones who are seen as the smartest, the most impressive, and the elite. All a physician has to do is prescribe an already known treatment to an already known condition. He appropriates a response to a condition, but nothing is new. No innovation is required. The constant racking of my brain, the desire to find some sort of drive when all I want to do is quit... all of it really sucks. Especially when I know I could be doing something where all the answers exist, all the solutions can be figured out, and it's a matter of knowing which is appropriate, not coming up with something from nothing.

That's supposed to be the fun part, the creative part. And it's killing me slowly; my creative spirit is dying. I hate where I am.